Artie’s Sleeping

Maybe next time we’ll have another chat with him. I thought it was kind of fun. However, as his work is rather chaotic this week, and the store needs a lot of attention, the poor guy kinda just passed out after eating a hamburger and watching Sponge Bob.

I had thoughts that I’d wait for him to wake up from his nap and go read and THEN write a great entertaining post, but, I feel it will then be my turn to fall asleep. And as I don’t want to be an ahole and miss a day, here it goes…

A few years ago, about 7 actually, my life took a turn and I molted almost all of my friends away. This wasn’t by choice, but really freaky times. After 7 years, another child, the start of the cookie store, a career change and a layoff, I feel I am finally getting back to normal. But normal has taken a different form.

I’ve been around a lot of change and I’m done with it. I can’t stomach risky times anymore or the feeling that my whole world is on the edge of all being taken away, again. I have lived for awhile off of what I could sell and literally the pennies I found on the floor, and sadly, those thoughts have come back again. A nice safe life where I can pay attention to my house, my children, my relationship, my aged dog and my yard is what I want most. Friends are rather awesome too. I’ll take a nice helping of them.

Now, despite being in the middle of the eye of the cookie store sustainability hurricane, I’m there. Next week I enter the world of the SAHM. If you are not familiar with this code, it stands for Stay At Home Mom. Along with this new status, I will also have limited knowledge of the inner workings of the cookie store. This is how I save my marriage and enjoy my life. Artie thought it would be best as he saw the store was driving me to the brink, and boy, was he right!

Doing what is necessary for our home has provided such awesome opportunities! That budget I keep trying to do but am always too busy to do? I actually started it yesterday and actually put it in the calendar to remind me to monitor it on a scheduled basis. In fact, before that, we actually devised a budget and started the tracking of it in two different applications. More than that, I can actually do laundry now – and the Dishes! I have painted every room in the house except for my own bedroom. Gasp! It will now be painted. Paint will be my birthday present to myself.

I even, and this I just realized tonight, have time to explore new music, and possibly even create art.

And so, despite my inner resolve (developed in college and honed in Houston) to do anything that resembled moving to the suburbs, looking like a soccer mom in a minivan, or not having a career, I am now doing all of those things. And there’s more… I might be a Conservative and listening to Dr. Laura and then reading part of one of her books was actually inspiring. I don’t even get it. How does something like this happen?

I guess what I thought was The Way before doesn’t work out for everyone in every case. I mean, really, that door didn’t merely close. It SLAMMED shut.

By lack of other choices, this path felt good and was available. I’m hitting the road!

Right after I take a nap.